Ok, today I will write a rather longish post about something I planned to tell you anyway, but I have reasons to put the other things behind and write about it first. But let me explain from the start.
As you might have noticed, the forum is currently more than ever filled with postings about family, adoption, marriage etc. This is not really new. As I told you before, I entered my first online community in May 1999, and in summer 1999 they started a family tree, just like here. It later grew very big, but at first there were only like 5 generations, and there were two voluntary mods who made the respective chat weddings. Well, I was friends with a female mod and she adopted me as her son. My father at that time and also my grandparents were mods, too. I then happened to meet a mod who I thought was male because of her nickname, and she was already part of the family, like the sister of my greatgreatgrandmother or so, with a husband and son. But she mourned the fact that they added her without ever having had a real chat wedding. One of the two female voluntary mods who made those weddings was friends with both her and me and tried to encourage us to have an official wedding. Since you know about my opinion on romance and stuff, I was not sure if that would be a good idea, but I was talked into it, and even though I knew her for only a week, we had a chat marriage. Back in the days, a day was a very long time on the internet, but still. At that time I already was leader of the Shadow Army, so after we had our wedding, there was a second ceremony where she was crowned Queen of the Shadow Army. This girl I hardly knew later became my first soulsister. And since we never were officially divorced, I guess IĀ“m still a married man. X-)
One reason why I wanted to tell you about this, besides showing you that the internet did not change too much over the last 20 years, is the fact that some people called me and my life poor when I told them that this virtual role-play wedding was the best time of my life. But you have to understand that I was always an outsider, but at this moment I was the liked and respected center of attention. It did not last too long, as life is, but I refuse to give up my positive memories while my demons wonĀ“t ever stop to keep haunting me. And I always was a strong believer in the fact that online and offline, in terms of psychology, are equal, only the rules and circumstances may differ.
But actually it wasnĀ“t the postings here that made me think about this and write this post now. It started with my German forums being gone, maybe forever, wiping out a vital part of my online life and legacy. I was wondering what really matters in life and if there is anything that lasts. I have those thoughts often, but this time I decided that we have always a chance of making new memories. They might not last forever either, but itĀ“s still better than crying over spilled milk forever. So I was wondering if @The_Saminator would want to be my forum partner-in-crime. No need for a wedding or anything, unless she wants to. But maybe she can help me to become a better person and focus on other things in my life and future than only bureaucracy and sicknesses. I mean, she already told me that she is not planning on going anywhere anytime soon, soā¦ I could have waited until Valentine and maybe find a better way to address this idea, but we only get older, and I am not an expert for romance and stuff. We might never be able to meet in real life and still need to get to know each other better, but maybe we can add a postive aspect to our lives. I really do not want to abuse her kindness in any way, but there is no use in waiting since my situation wonĀ“t change, and if we are to try this, now is just as good as a starting time than any other day, and maybe tomorrow I will find 100 more reasons not to post this. Guess I still donĀ“t make too much sense, do I ?
and you know what 
I am glad to ignore those 100 more reason not to post 
:-p
light travels at a speed of 299,792,458 m/s, i wonder why she didnāt bless me with that kinda speed D:
