Sorry for the late response! I’m very sorry that you had to go thorough that. It breaks my heart that you were put in that kind of situation. Honestly, i’m still young but, i really want to go back when I was even younger. The world seemed so “right” back then. The air, the atmosphere, and the sun. I truly feel like the Sun shined brighter in the 2000’s. But now, it’s so gloomy which reflex my mood most of the time 
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I bash myself all the time and live in fear because of myself. I am my own worst enemy and i’m pretty of ashamed of that. I’m always afraid of failure. I often ask myself “If no one had my back in this world, would I survive? If I can’t motivate myself nor love myself, who would listen to me.” I have been blessed many of times but, i’m finally realizing that I was taking it for granted by not loving myself enough for the life I was given.
There are so many conflicted feelings that spin within my mind and to be honestly, it’s really toxic. The last couple of days, I’ve changed a bit and I noticed that the sun shines just as bright as it used to 
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With the current situation right now, i’m sure this might be just as hard for you. I’m sorry that you felt like you’ve missed out on your childhood. All I can say is, live for today. I know it’s hard not getting the time you want back. Unfortunately, we can’t (but I want to at moments as well). But, there are brighter days ahead. It might get tough but just stay strong for yourself and be your biggest supporter! Give yourself all the love that you need. Maybe, take some time out of the day just to free your mind and take a breather.
If you ever need someone to talk to (especially when you’re having a bad day, feel free to message me anytime I’m truly praying and rooting for you. I
(Sorry if I sound a bit to poetic about the sun part lol)
Also, thank you 
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