Giving up (What to do?)

Sydney or Nick you can close this if it’s against the guidelines.

It’s @Forever1201,

Right now I feel depressed. I don’t know what to do feel anymore. I feel useless and stressed and selfish (especially selfish) and I can’t take it anymore. I hate being selfish but I feel like I am.

You see, in real life and forums, I feel I’m getting ignored. (And that is my fault no one else’s and I know it’s not intentional. People just forget and I understand that. I love everyone)

I just don’t know if I can take it anymore. I’m stronger than this god Damnit! I don’t know who to tell so I’m putting this public.

Maybe it’s because of the competition I have tomorrow but right now I feel stressed and I feel like I’m going to cry right now. I don’t know if I can take it anymore.

Please don’t start drama. I don’t want anyone to get off topic or mean.

Your free to comment and rant (this is NOT a ranting thread) about what’s going on in your life or you can pm me

Anyway, that’s all I have,

Have a good day/night

@Forever1201

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Hey @Forever1201 I’m very sorry to know you’re feeling like this. Life is so cruel sometimes.

You aren’t useless, don’t call yourself that. No one in the world is useless. Everyone has a purpose. If you would like to talk more, my PMs are open and I have a list of safety resouces in my bio.

Sometimes life will bring you down (I never thought I’d make it past 20 yet here I am). Life will throw all kinds of obstacles at you but no matter what you keep on pushing through and keep your fire burning.

Surround yourself with positive people. If not many in real life, lots of lovely people can be found on the forums.

If you need to cry, you can cry to let out your emotions. After being called useless, that’s what I did. I cried. And right after, got back up on my feet.

YOU ARE STRONG AND BEAUTIFUL OK :partying_face: :blob_hearts: :blob_sun:

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I have seen you all over the forums in the threads I usually check for updates on :relaxed:

Haven’t really had the opportunity to interact with you yet though, as I try to only post if it genuinely contributes something to the conversation or community.

But I’ve always thought you were pretty cool! :wink:

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Thank you

@JemU776

@Ashtory

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I’m so sorry you feel like this. You aren’t useless at all, everybody has a purpose, just like Jem said, and sometimes when we’re really struggling, it’s difficult to remember or find that purpose, but it’s there. And when you’ve all grown up into a wonderful young lady, you’ll be so grateful because throughout one of the hardest times of your life, you hung on. I wish I could go and tell everyone in your life not to ignore you and to pay more attention to you, but I can’t. But what I can do, is even if it’s not intentional, I want to help make you feel not ignored on the forums at least. And it’s not just because you feel ignored and I’m doing it for the sake of it. It’s because even if we don’t talk, I do care about you so much and I do love you a lot, and I want you to feel and know that I do care, and so does everybody. It’s not your fault that you feel ignored either, so don’t feel selfish. I feel like that a lot too. It’s completely not your fault.

You are really strong and brave and perseverant, and it’s so, so amazing that you’ve gotten so far. And it doesn’t make you any less strong to want to give up. Everyone feels like this in some form or severity at least once in their lifetime. You can get past this, okay? I believe you really can. I know you can. You have been through so much and I get that it’s so hard and that it’s difficult to keep fighting and hoping, but carry on. Please. You don’t know if you can take it anymore. I know. I know you can take this and fight this and become even stronger. I believe in you.

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@Forever1201 I reached out to you via pm. Hoping thing’s get better :yay:

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@Forever1201

I don’t know about you, but I consider you a pretty close friend. You are so much more than you think you are. Life has its struggles (trust me, I know) but you have to keep moving because eventually it’ll get better. You are a strong person, probably one of the strongest people I know. You’ve done so much more than you know. You’ve helped me through a pretty rough time, and my hope is that I can do the same.

I just want you to know that you mean so much to me and I really, really hope you know that. :heart:

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@JemU776 is right!!! @Forever1201 You’re strong, amazing, talented, the best friend someone could ask for, remain positive, avoid the negative. Life is tough, really tough.

See? you’re stronger than ever! Keep pushing yourself, keep motivating yourself, don’t feel down. I know it was a hard choice for you to decide to put it public or not, but you have people that are always here to help you, always. Like @JemU776. myself, @_haruka, @Ashtory, @Roleplay.lk, etc. some that talk to you and maybe others that haven’t but will eventually.

@Forever1201 we’re all here for you, if you ever need anyone to talk to, feel free to message me or anyone else here on forums. Remain positive, you will get through this! :raised_hands::100::heavy_heart_exclamation::sunglasses:

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I know exactly how you feel. I was struggling with depression two years ago when i was a sophomore in high school. It is really tough not to take the easy route and end things, but trust me it gets better. I wouldn’t say it if it wasn’t true. Things will get hard and you’ll feel like the suffering is never gonna end. However, life isn’t always suffering. There are good moments too that makes going through hardships worth it.

I’m sorry if i sound corny, but trust me when i say that all i said was true. Dont give up yet. Maybe you need a break from the competitive atmosphere? Depression is deprived from long exposure to stress.

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I will not say that I completely understand what you’re going through, because at the end of the day you have your own story as I have my own. But I’m certainly going through something similar.
Especially within these past few months, depression and anxiety have both taken an immense toll on me. To cope, I’ve been writing in a Google document. I had my first ever therapy appointment on October 28, and my third appointment is on this Monday. I don’t want to jinx it, but I’ve been feeling better than I have simply a month ago. Ironically, I was just going through my document for analytical purposes, and I found this piece from October 7th:

Summary

“ Maybe I would be better off gone. Maybe everybody would be better off with me gone. I can’t give up like that. I need to keep going. I need to. There’s got to be something out there for me. There has to be. ——, what if there isn’t? Am I just living for something that I partially don’t believe in, and therefore unreal? I’m just suffering everyday. I’m so exhausted. I’m so ——— exhausted. So, so exhausted with all of this.”

And somehow I go on these forums and I see this post. I don’t know exactly what I believe in, but I think the universe purposefully put me here so I can write this to you.

Keep trekking though the mud. Keep swimming against the current. Keep running through the fire.

Always find something to fight for, whether it’s that competition, the possibility of helping someone else, the desire to eat your favorite food. It doesn’t matter how big or how small, just continue to look for the next thing to look forward to. It’s not easy, but it’s possible.

I don’t know you. I don’t know even a sliver of your life. Yet I’m telling you, you’re loved. You are worth it. I appreciate you. It’s cheesy, this whole thing is, but I mean every word. You have this community to fall back on whenever you need it :))

You won’t feel better overnight. There will be hills to overcome and demons to face. But just keep fighting. You’re incredibly strong and persistent and I believe in you. If you absolutely ever need anybody to talk to, I’m here :)) Hoping the sun shines a little stronger for you.

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