Growing up I’ve realized what traits I get from my parents. My sister is very talkative and short tempered which she gets from my dad. However, I have something of both of my parents that I really wish I didn’t have.
I wish I wasn’t as silent as my mom. I know my worth and I know I can speak up but there is always something blocking me to do so. I’ve also noticed physically my mom has that problem as well. Which makes it hard for me to speak with me dad and not end up fighting because I constantly want to have a say but I end up sounding stupid.
I’m also stubborn like my dad. I’m always saying how I can things without help. There were times were my dad and i wouldn’t talk for months because of a stupid fight. We end up refusing to even look at each other, as if we are waiting for one of us to apologize.
Right now I haven’t spoken to my dad in a month and here’s the reason.
I have severe nose bleeds, I could just be texting or on my phone and i’ll feel bleed running down. There was a day where the bleeding wouldn’t stop. I was frustrated. My older sister then had the audacity to say, “You have so much time to be on Episode yet you can’t come upstairs to eat.” All because I said, “I can’t eat right now, my nose is bleeding.”
This annoyed me. Anyone would have reacted annoyed if someone were to say that to them. Mind you I’m the youngest in an Asian household. Whenever I made jokes my sister would always take them to heart and I’d get in big trouble.
Now here’s the real reason I’m not talking to my dad. I started getting mad that my sister had said that. My mom came downstairs to ask what’s wrong cuz she heard me nagging. My sister came downstairs and starts yelling at me saying,
IT WAS A FCKING JOKE!*
Also, my nose was still bleeding. She tried to attack me (My sister and I have been in many physical fights before) but my mom stopped her. It was like I was at fault, because i was offended at a joke?
My dad came downstairs and already starting pointing fingers. He obviously targeted me. Again my nose was still bleeding. He called me an idiot, a troublemaker, then he stated,
You get mad at the smallest things.
Smallest things? I’m getting dizzy because of how much blood I’m losing and I’m getting bashed on while in this situation yet it’s a small thing?
It’s been a month and he has the audacity walk around the house waiting for an apology.
Guys please tell me what to do.