Same as @lale, I’d love to help, but I’m not entirely sure how to be helpful.
For me (although I can’t directly relate to the root of your issue), I’m just essentially trying to make the most out of high school. For the most part, I can’t wait to get the hell out of my town full of snobs and ignorant gremlins. However, there is always at least one person who makes me forget about all the pompous clowns. There’s always the reminder of confidence that I can get a McFlurry because the ice-cream machine in my town generally works, or the convenience of events since it’s such a small town and everybody practically knows each other. There’s always some sort of a silver lining in things, but sometimes it’s incredibly hard to find it. I hope you find your silver lining. Until then, just keep swimming 
Need somebody to rant to? I’m here, and so are a lot of other people. You have a support system and we’re all here with you.