Hi, everybody! I know I don’t normally post stuff like this, but I have a couple of questions about what to do about my crush so I need advice. I’m willing to hear anything!
Ok so here’s the story:
I met this guy when I was 11 because he’s in the same class as me at school. Btw, he’s the same age as me. We had pretty much all lessons together in the first 2 years of school, but I didn’t like LIKE him then. I’m sort of nervous around guys and I never really know how to act as all my friends are girls. So about 1 1/2 ago, he started dating someone in the year ( not like serious, because we were all 12 ) I found out through looking at his tellonym that he never even kissed her. In September 2019, we got given new classes. I was still in a class with him so now I was in his class for everything except English. I started to like him, but I’m quite quiet so I don’t know if he likes me still. Because I would say I’m a typical girl, I do remember most encounters that have a meaning to me with him. 1: we were doing a science practical and he and his friend were joking around. Us 3 were doing the practical and his friend said “do you know who _ likes?” And _ cut him off and was like “nooo, no”. We were all laughing and stuff but it made me feel like he liked me too. I also sat next to him in several other lessons. 2: I was talking to one of my friends and her friend(male) in PE and he said” in a club after-school, ___ said “rowenj is damn fit”.” [spoiler]my first name and surname, it isn’t actually rowen james[/spoiler]
I responded “aren’t him and (previous girlfriend( the one from when we were 12)) still together?” But my friend told me they had broken up a while ago which is how I found out about that. This was about a year ago and I still remember that exact moment. Then a couple of months after that, lockdown went on so I didn’t get to see him at all (apart from one time we had to go into school for about an hour) until September. Now I’m only in lessons with him in Maths and one of my other subjects. We’re both pretty smart so we contribute quite a lot to the lessons. I don’t see him in lessons but I see him around school quite often. I sometimes see him looking at me. He’s not popular or hot( he’s not bad looking😂) , I don’t really get attracted to people for their looks but his personality is good, he’s funny and smart.
All I really want to know is, what should I do? Because I don’t know if I want a boyfriend( I haven’t even had my first kiss) but I still like him. And all my friends I sit with at school are some part of the LGBT community and I’m the only straight one, (so far, I have no idea who I’m interested in). None of them know who it is and I haven’t told anybody so sorry for this being such a long post, you guys are the first people I’ve told. Another major issue: one of my friends is his ex ( the one from 2 years ago). We became friends in the past year. She has a different boyfriend now so I’m not worried about that but I don’t know if I ever ended up dating him that it would go badly with her. I don’t even follow him on Instagram in case anybody would see as I don’t want anybody who knows me to know.
Please give me any advice you have!
Extra: I’m 14 (birthdays in August) and I think he is going to be 15 in the next month so there’s barely an age gap.
Thank you so much if you have any advice!