I suck at this, lol
2 am thoughts
It doesn’t matter how many sleeping positions I try. I can’t sleep, my throat feels so dry. As I checked the clock it says “02:01 AM”. Did I do something wrong? Did I hurt anybody? I take my glass from my nightstand and go upstairs to the kitchen, I feel a lump in my throat, I feel guilt. As I walk the stairs the whole house creaks. I walk on the edge of the steps, so I don’t wake up the house. Nothing seems to matter anymore, I’ve lost everybody and everything. At least it feels that way. Was it my fault? I’m coming to the sink, I let the tap run for a while. I’m not a fan of lukewarm water. I take a sip of the glass. As I drink I feel something fluffy against my leg. I freeze. It takes me some seconds to look at what it is. As I check I felt a relief through my whole body. It’s just my cat. I walk down the stairs, the cat follows me. I walk carefully to the door and let my cat out. I see it run down the street. I want to do the same- fix everything before it’s too late.