This question (Is it worth trying again?) has been on my mind for a couple days now.
I started reading Episode stories back at 2014, after a few years of learning English fully, I published my first story around November 2017. My first story gained 20 reads in 2 months, I had no connection with neither forums or Instagram. My directing was basic, I didn’t know how to place an overlay without putting it on the bg. But, I’ve improved myself and entered the “Heroes & Villains” contest. I failed the contest, I didn’t win, but I gained something else. A lot of friendships. Even though my story reached only 200 reads at the time of the contest, I was known around the forums because I reviwed over 30 contest entries in a week. Anyone who spent an entire day on the forums could’ve easily find me.
Time passed by, lost a lot of friends, didn’t enter Fantastical due to some “partner” problems. The Thriller contest came by. Thriller is my favorite genre, just like Halloween is my favorite holiday. (even though no one celebrates it here lol.)
When the Thriller contest was announced, I was already getting ready to leave Episode. But I made a promise to myself that I wouldn’t leave without at least joining the Thriller contest. Well, I got a little carried away and said a few things on Instagram, while I do admit, those weren’t nice, they weren’t mean either. I was getting cocky because I was good at directing. (I mean… I had a lot of threads that helped people learn a few things, so…)
Anyway, someone saw my IG story and decided to post in on their story. I woke up seeing over 100 people on my story. (the average was 50 at most, so I figured out someone called me out lol.) No one really said anything mean to me but people watching all of my stories as if I did something wrong when I was just posting memes and being cocky. That really made me both angry and sad. After all, this community has a lot of problematic people that hide in the shadows of their reads, but when a not-so-famous person say something, just turn against them.
I deactivated my IG and never opened the portal again. But seeing how people support each other in this contest, I wished that I also joined. (If only people were supportive as much as this in other contests. )
So, here I am again, debating if I should write on Episode again. Because I feel like it’s going to happen again. People don’t care about your story unless its romance with a typical bad boy.
Asking this question to all the forum users
Is it worth trying again?
Thank you to those who took time to read and respond.