“I dont know we will have to see.”
I smile at her. “or the other option we can do if you want one biologically with me would be to do a surrogate mother to carry our baby. It is up to you and it is up to you if you want another child. If you don’t want one I am completely on board with you. I want to do what you want. If you feel like we are too old to take care of a child or baby then we won’t do it.”
I keep rubbing her belly lightly so I wouldn’t wake up Rose. I want her o wake up on her own not because of me. am so happy she is my wife and I am so happy to have these babies. What Rose doesn’t know is I am doubting myself. I am scared I will screw up again and cheat or somehow I will go back to Jess. I mean I miss Jess a lot and want to talk to her again but I don’t want to ruin things with Rose or hurt her again.
“Im thinking of heading to my room but if you want me to say I will.”
“Ok.” I say taking him from her. “Hi buddy wanna cuddle with daddy?”
She smiles. She lets him sleep. And then she starts to fall asleep too closer to him.
He is sleeping peacefully. He feels Kay get closer. He holds her closer.
I start to slowly toss in my sleep. I’m starting to wake up. I can feel Gabe still rubbing my belly. As I lay there I wonder what is on his mind.
“We could do it the last way. I think I really like that way the best baby. I would love to have another one with you. Then it can be what it is. I wouldn’t mind as long as the baby was healthy. Who would we get to be out surrogate though? I want it to be someone we trust.”
She sleeps peacefully. She feels comfortable. She rests her hand on his chest.
I can tell Rose is starting to wake up. I give her a kiss and say “Hey baby girl your awake. I loved watching you sleep and look so comfy. How was your nap?”
“Yup cause hes ours.” I respond smiling. “Oh Coda you dknt know whats ahead for you. Treatments and medications possibly a feeding tube and many more.”
I hold her belly with one hand and her waist with the other. She makes me so happy. She is amazing.
I wake up and open my eyes when I hear him speak. “My nap was great. How was yours baby? I’m hungry for finner now.”
She keeps sleeping. While sleeping she feels Layla kick and she smiles. She keeps sleeping.
I just smile at her and kiss her on the lips then on the cheek. “Alright baby girl. Do you want to go to the cafe or do you want me to bring something up here for you?” I asked her. I was fine with either. “And my nap was good.”