Aww thanks. I should probably go study now. I just don’t want to. sighs
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I am tired of pretending.
I am tired of pretending to be a textrovert when I am not one.
I am effing tired, and this message is directed to whoever who is concerned…
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Most likely do some art, revise for tests and plan a couple other things 
How about you?
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Yeah, I am okay, just needed to let some random stuff out 
Thanks for asking 
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What do you do when you’ve been gone from here for months, but are starting to come back?
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Hahaha I did the exact same thing. I left on the old forums and when I came back there were these completely new and foreign forums with weird bright colors that differed greatly from the old forums’ black theme.
I don’t know why you left but if you had friends when you left, they’ll probably be more happy that you’ve returned than angry that you left. And if you didn’t have any friends here, then there are tons of new people to make friends with now, so just start posting on discussion threads or game threads or wherever you feel most comfortable.
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Thank you thank you THANK YOU! 
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I found a 90s music playlist on Youtube and I listened to some of its songs yesterday maybe I will listen to more of them later.
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Also, I was searching on Google about the Lost Generation (they were American writers that wrote stories after the first World War) and now Youtube constantly shows me videos of people dancing in the 1920s.
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Hello everyone here.
I wanted to share with you smth that happened to me and proved me wrong and I hope you benefit.
So lately I’ve been depressed (just lately? nah for some years ) and today I decided to actually start doing chemistry homework. And I remembered when I was younger and the top student of the class , good times. Back then I used to have some fake friends which through the years I lost them for good. They were all manipulative narcisstic bad people who stayed with me only for their interest. As soon as smth bad happened to me they just stopped hanging out with me. I started getting really depressed but hey I met some other great people through the next two years. The problem was that even though they were amazing I just couldn’t socialise like before. And then the family problems started kicking in . And then anxiety , intrusive thoughts were like: Hey let us introduce ourselves (yep meme reference) and I was like no thank you , but lol none asked me .
So today I kinda socialised and this kinda motivated me to start doing homework and study. (It was hard , it was) And I solve two problems and I got stuck on the third . I give up at this point. I say to myself why do I even bother , my life will always be bad . And I go the living room looking real sad and I sit on the couch. Then I get up and walk around the house because anxiety! And my mom says : What is wrong with you.? Why are you sad all the time . And I decide to tell her about my chemistry problem. My mom then insisted to solve my problem. This make me cringe because it’s an advanced problem and my mom couldn’t solve it . It was just a waste of time which made me feel even more bad. SO then my mom tells me to call a friend but I’m like no because reasons. And then my mom tells me to call my older sis (she is out of the city) . Then I started thinking negative again. I thought: My sis has her own things to do she doesn’t have time , then I thought how I never call her only when it’s about solving problems and I felt so bad (im not a bad person it’s family reasons). And another thought: I probably forgot to write a part of the problem like the loser I am. I gave up but my mom forced me to tell my sis about it. And I tell her and I go to the other room because I can’t stand it anymore. And then I hear a ring . My sister had solved the problem and it was very easy. Even my mom solve it . This made me a little happy because it meant some things : First I had wrote the problem correctly not wrong . Second my sis helped me . Third my mom solve the problem which means she is smart I just had forgotten that. All these mean I was dead wrong. Which means I am probably wrong for many other things too. I understood that not all my thoughts are true .
another situation where this happened was when: I was sitting alone in the class and this girl called me to sit with her. Then after some moments she looked bored and got up and went to the door. I thought: She is probably bored from me , well I suck at socialising or keeping a damn conversationc . Then I got up to and went to sitting alone again. I was thinking how much people must hate me and how annoying I was to them. Then this girl girl turns back to the seat she was sitting before with me and she looks at me and she is kinda surprised. I’m like what did I do wrong? I probably did something wrong as always , ugh I suck at everything. And then two minutes later I hear her calling me to sit with her again. I’m kinda confused. But then I understand why she looked at me surprised , she didn’t expect from me to leave so fast. And then I sit with her and there is this awkward silence . Then she starts talking and I start talking and the rest is history. I talked with her for two hours straight.
It made me happy but the next day she is like :we never talked about stuff. Whatever I think she called me only because her friend was missing otherwise she wouldn’t need me.
So I might be wrong again but I don’t think so. Okay guys sorry about this but I wanted to tell you that even though you might think you are a loser and everyone hates you or that you aren’t even that important for others to think about you let alone hate you, you are wrong ! It’s your brain playing tricks with you. You are loved and precious . You have so many potential hidden in you . You are important . Everyone has a purpose. You are loved !
I would give you an imaginary hug but idk if you want it from a loser like me . AAGH here I go again with my negative thoughts. (I can’t help it ) Sorry
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Are you okay with people giving you advice to feel better?Because that’s what I’m here for
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Yes
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What do you mean?
of course.
like advice maybe not related to episode, but to real life.
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or both
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It can be life like, just screaming let it all out
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yeah, and crying to.
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I’ll start. When I see the light I question everything which is very unhealthy