It really does actually thanks, I need to be more careful tho
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For sure, this will be the first and last
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Eh I think it’s honestly all in the mind I mean I mess with myself a lot and feel like that but you’re a great girl hon don’t worry
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Don’t feel bad and don’t worry with your friend yeah it’s hard a lot I won’t lie but it doesn’t help when you put bad thoughts in your head as well you got this hon.
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Okie dokie that’s good hon
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I like you (as a friend just to clarify), you’re an amazing person. You’re always there to support me and give me advice. You’re such a kind and caring person.
Tbh then, they’re not really you’re friend. We’ve all had this happen to us, people will come and go. People will lie to your face and turn their backs on you. But you do have people that care about you and really do love you, especially here.
You do have love, even if you dont feel it. On this world no one deserves anything, except for love, we either work for it or people give it to us cause they truly love you and care for you regardless if you deserve it. You do deserve love Es.
I know you may feel that way but in all honesty that’s far from the truth, there’s so many people who’ve never dated or had a real relationship. Just cause you don’t have a that special someone doesn’t mean you’ll never find them. Besides you’re young you have an entire life to find someone.
Pain is just temporary, even if may feel like it’s lasted forever it will go away eventually. It may feel like everyone hated you or you’re unloved, but you’re loved by so many people. You just have to keep on fighting.
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oof that was a lot of writing and kinda tiring
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Esther please… please keep fighting… And you have lost all your friends… I don’t really know your relationships with anyone else but you have me. I consider you a friend, a really good friend. And you haven’t lost me…
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so you’re going to keep fighting? I… I can’t have you die, same with everyone else I care about
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I know what you mean, thank you for trying…
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That’s always something that crosses my mind to. But then you can always tell which friends really have an interest in you. I had the same thoughts last year, and then this year I started to meet some nice people that talk to me everyday.
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Wat they did or said is a reflection of them. Not you. EVER
U deserve to be happy everyone does
And u dont need ppl who treat u like less than in ur life
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thanks Es 
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Well and the same thing will happen for you, meeting people that care about you is the best feeling ever.
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Oh yeah you will, going on school trips, joining school clubs, people in your classes that you have never talked to before, or lunch. It just takes a while
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But I don’t want you to feel like that, someone is really gonna appreciate you, we all do on the forms.
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usually I don’t make cringey, long, sad posts but since it may be one of my last I just wanted to make this to show my appreciation and kinda say bye
I just want to rant about how amazing my forum friends are, especially considering I think I’m taking a long break, or maybe leaving the forums in general
Errr I want to say that this place was amazing and I loved it, but some people (cough, like 4 in particular, cough) made it fucking toxic for me and now when I see the forum tab on my computer I get depressed af. So I guess that’s why I need to GO.
@FinnTheGhost you’ve always been there for me bro. You’re the best therapist and always there to listen to my endless problems. Your replies are always long and comforting and friendly, I really admire how much effort and time you put into helping everyone, even back when we barely knew each other and I was just another random forum girl having a panic attack, you still spent about two hours trying to help me and for that, I’ll always appreciate you and admire you. I’ll miss you a lot.
@estherdekker we only started talking frequently more recently, but we’re already really close (at least I hope 
) it kinda started when you told me how much you stalk my Instagram and that was when I knew I wanted to be your best friend 
you always make me feel confident about myself physically and emotionally, in short, you give me a lot of compliments thanks for boosting my ego through the roof. Honestly I’m pissed that you don’t know how pretty and amazing you are. You deserve so many good things and so much happiness. AND FREAKING RECOGNIZE YOUR BEAUTY PLEASE I BEG U 
I’ll miss you loads but I’ll DM you on Instagram and snapchat. I’ll start doing streaks soon as wellllll xxx
@jenna1012 you’re amazing and ily loads you’re so comforting and nice to talk to I’ll miss you a lot. You mean a lot to me and I really love seeing you around the forums and on the group chats because any conversation I have with you is fun and chill and just gives me nice vibes. I guess you just emit positivity ahahah I’ll miss you a lot girllll
@kerubiel I miss you dude I know we never got very close or anything but you’re a lovely person. Its upsetting how rarely we get to talk. I hope one day we can catch up maybe. For whenever you see this, just know im glad I could call you my friend- OH and you’re awesome 
@epsd.ama GIRL I LOVE YOU PLEASE DONT FORGET ME OMG OMG OMG YOURE MY BFF HOPEFULLY WE CAN KEEP IN CONTACT ON INSTAGRAM AND DO LIVES TOGETHER LOL IM FUXKING DEPRESSED COZ WE NEVER TALK OK LOVE YOU BYE
ps ur my bff ily honestly and I’ll miss you 
@Liam I’ll miss you dude. Keep playing as me on Bitlife and update me on what crazy shit goes on, I’ll check my pms every so often if I can you’re probably the only person I’ll come on to the forums for from now on because I appreciate you loads and you’re hilarious. You always brighten my day and we have so much in common like WTFFF I’m sorry we don’t talk as often anymore maybe you’re busy but I hope you see this. Whenever I think of Bitlife or Until Dawn I’ll always think of you 
@Kaycee_Rose keep being you because you’re awesome and don’t let anyone talk you down. Pm me on snapchat whenever
I’ll miss you x
@cam you’re so awesome and wise and amazing. Please keep being you and spread your wisdom. People who will probably fuck up their existence on a daily basis (like me) need your advice and intelligence 24/7 and I’m glad I received some whilst I could! You’re a really lovely person and I’ll miss you a lot
@Chocolate_Mama oh god damn I’ll miss you so much wtfff. I’m so sad. You’ve always been there for me since day 1 and there’s nothing I wouldn’t do for you. I appreciate you to the moon and back and you’re my best friend. You’re so insane in the best way possible I literally aspire to be like you because you’re THAT amazing and inspiring. You’re funny and kind and caring and friendly and fucking loyal to the end. Everything I hope I can be one day, and everything I wish for in a friend. I freaking look up to you because you’re an incredible human SO PLEASE DONT FORGET THAT!!! Any guy would be lucky to have you and Donnie or whatever his name is can go fuck himself lolololol
I heard you found your new man and I’m so proud and happy for you. If he breaks your heart I’ll break his face so hit me up on discord if something happens and I’ll fly out to America ASAP. (BUT he sounds awesome so hopefully I won’t have to do that)
One day me you and Amani will all meet up and have a party lol ok I sound silly now so imma go before I start crying ilysm honestlyyyy
I’ll probably add to this later if I’ve forgotten someone and I’m sorry if I have lolololol but anyway the point is goodbye and I love my friends and I won’t forget u
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Meadow you’re honestly like my best friend through and through not just online but like for real in real life as well! I love you so much and this post just made me like! cry! you’re like the best person ever and this post just made my whole day through and through. Love you so much and I’ll pm you on discord also pm me as well because I can’t go long without talking to my spirit animal! Even when we first meet I was like:”heck yeah me and this girl are gonna be friends” and here we are and you’re amazing thank you for the advice and the wisdom you’ve shared with me.
And when we meet yassssss I’ll bring rap snacks and we can live life up! And yasssss we should throw a huge party because we finally met! Please stay safe and feel better while you leave I’ll miss you so so so much like to the moon and back. 
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Hey man, as someone who needed to take a month long break for my mental health I getcha.
If you end up coming back ya better message me man, I’m gonna wanna know how you’re doing!
But if you dont, just know that you mean a lot to me and that if this is what’s best for your mental health I fully support you. Also know that if you wanna pop in just to rant or vent you totally can and I’m always here for you, ok?
P l e a s e stay safe man. And take great care of yourself ok??
Also thank you, this meant a lot to me to read and also I’ll show kerub the message you wrote for her when she a w a k e n s
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Of course girl I may come online to check up on my main girl JORDINNNN
Idk I guess this is the end to my 24/7 activity on here but I know I’m a forum addict so I’m sure I’ll be back every so often. Just not on group chats. Maybe on pm individually… 
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