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I did the same with Instagram. It distracted me too much, so I stopped going on it. I understand what you’re saying… I do Running Start, which is pretty much a program where I go to college and earn my high school and college credits at the same time. It was much harder than high school where I studied for all my tests and quizzes in and did my homework in different classes. I also didn’t have any friends and suffered from a lot of anxiety.

Please, don’t get so down on yourself. Even though you feel like you didn’t work hard, I think you very much did with all the other commitments listed on here. And I totally understand your cycle of self-loath and procrastination. I’m one of the biggest procrastinators ever. In fact, yesterday was THE FIRST time I submitted an essay SIX hours early before the deadline rather than a few minutes. I always wait till the last moment, and so many feelings come with it including the self-loath. Hell, I even started becoming anxious at the idea of doing homework. Thinking about doing it would make me anxious to tears. NO JOKE. Yes, like a kid I cried about doing my homework. In addition to that, I have a dream and I really need to work towards that more than anything. But, I don’t. And I hate myself more than anything for that. It’s my FUCKIN DREAM. Yet, I can’t even find it in me to work towards that. How pathetic can I be? A lot of times I also wasn’t able to do what I love because school kept me from it and it frustrated me to no end. I totally understand the feeling of not being able to balance everything. In fact, that feeling pisses me off to no end that my eyes look horrendous due to the lack of sleep. Yes, I gave up my sleep to do some of the things that I love. I absolutely do not recommend it at all. It just pisses me off how at school I have to take classes I couldn’t give a shit about and wouldn’t even help me in my future career and dream and how those classes are taking away that dream from me. They prevent me from learning other things I want to learn or spending my time writing or drawing. I also totally understand the eating. On Saturday, all I ate was toast the whole day and nearly fainted because of how less I’ve been eating before that + dehydration. I just hate it so much…

Sorry, this has become half rant/half trying to help you out. I’m so sorry. But, I guess I just relate and feel the pain of so much that you said that it kind of just awoke these feelings in me again.

Now, I know you’re busy. But, I think you should try taking a step back from things. Forget about your commitments like your weheartit articles, art, and everything else. Now, I know that for some things it may be hard to take a step back from because you need to do it, but I suggest finding a way you can. In that break, just do what you actually feel good with doing. Believe me, it’ll make you feel much better. This is coming from experience. You really do deserve it. You need some time to prepare yourself for the shitstorm called “Junior Year”. I don’t know you well so I can’t say this for sure, but maybe you need time to gather the determination for next year so it doesn’t become a repeat of this one, except shittier. Also, if you need to get off of these forums to be more productive, then do it. Sure, it’ll suck, but the forums aren’t as important as your goals. Plus, you can always come back occasionally when you have the time.

Open the art related accounts and commissions when you are ready for it. Write the article when you are ready for it. I think one of the reasons you may be having a huge art block is because you’re pressuring and stressing yourself about it. Maybe you should try looking back on why you started art in the first place?

Those SAT tests and AP tests- you’ll do fine. As long as you have the determination to, you will be fine. Also, remember you can take your SAT in your senior year. I was unable to take them Junior year because I had been really sick in those months, so I will be able to take them Senior year. If it helps, you could maybe delay the SAT testing.

I wish you good luck with what you want to do. You’ll be able to get through high school even if it’s hard and torturous. Remember to watch anime as breaks!!

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Unlike you who regrets yelling, I wish I had yelled at my Dad’s friend’s family that came here yesterday. Talking about it just pisses me off and it’s a drag to explain, but pretty much these were some sick minded people.

Another thing that happened this morning was my mom was discussing my damn behaviour from yesterday. Yesterday, there was a conversation on racism, and my dad said he doesn’t face any racism. I had faced racism from my elementary days to end of middle school because of the shitty ass white, privileged, republican, christian school I had to attend as a person of color. So I told me dad, no there is racism. My mom told me I was supposed to agree with my dad and not disagree. I shouldn’t disagree with adults and that adults are always right and I don’t know anything. I was fuckin pissed. So I can’t have my own damn opinion? I bet if I were a guy, I wouldn’t get lectured on half of the things I do.

…I’ll excuse myself before I start explaining the situation and break my keyboard with anger in the process of it.

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omg ik. So there was these ppl and they used to be my friend but one person said a ton olf bad lllies abt and UGH they HATE me now even though it wasn’t true!

#lit #awesome
Queen :fire: :sunglasses:

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@anime @Eleanor_W-15 @alphard

anime

I wish you the best at school, I know the forums can be a great distraction, so I completely understand your choice. I’ll miss you though haha And remember that I’m here if you ever need me :3

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Honestly, as long as that woman didn’t get you guys in any serious trouble, her perception is just that, her perception. And I’ve learnt that how people perceive you is not that important, so I’d suggest just letting her ignorance slide, it shouldn’t affect you.
And you are 100% right on the respect thing. It’s hard to respect someone who doesn’t respect you, and there is nothing wrong with not respecting someone who hasn’t earned it.

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Agreed, people have to have some kind of rational process instead of believing everything they’re told. And if they don’t, then you go prove them wrong, the satisfaction is definitely worth it

anime (again)

You said all I though about the respect matter, thank you.

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I’ve been in your situation before and I can just say… it’s awful. Last year uni almost killed me, literally speaking. The workload, the stress and depression made it almost impossible for me to do anything, but well, I survived.
When it comes to working ad studying, I seriously recommend the Pomodoro technique, it’s super useful and helps me improve my development, so maybe you can give it a try. And on the anxiety homework gives you… I can relate. Maybe you can set some sort of routine before you begin doing your homework, that way you may be able to focus better and it helps me relax.
But above all… well, remember that you come first, and please take care of yourself.

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You have no idea how mad it makes to to see those words your mum said to you. No, it’s not your duty to agree with everything adults say, not even your parents. You are your own person and you are allowed, to have your own opinions. In fact, you SHOULD have your own opinions!
So… yeah, before i get too mad I’m going to say: You should be proud of your opinions and no one can shut you up. Sometimes you have to fight to be listened, but it’s worth it, and overall, you have to fight for what is right.

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Aww you’re welcome, I’m happy to help

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Ranty Rant Rant

I guess most of you know what Fear Of Failure is? You must’ve experienced it some or most of the times in your life? Or face it everyday? (Kudos to those peeps!)
For some of us, in the teen time, I think we have this thought, “If I fail, all izz over.” For me, failure is equal to bad performance which is equal to bad diploma which is equal to bad credentials which is equal to a crappy job which is ultimately equal to poverty.
It’s this fear of failure which is, like, a major part of high anxiety in not only me, but many people. What if this? What if that? Our elders say that life can’t go by living on What If’s, but we have to imagine a bad part of every situation, right?
Actor SRK (Google him if ya dunno), a big role model to the Indian youth and beyond, said that, “Success will come, but from the direction you never predicted, and so will damn failure. So don’t lose sleep over either.” God Bless Him and his soul for his words to give a little motivation to us.
Now, aside from the failure part, I saw many of us face loneliness. And while our peers in the forums and from other places try their best to reach out to us and/or comfort us (Thank you so much, you all!), we still feel somewhat incomplete, right? SRK also said this which somewhat might help ya, “Do not be afraid to walk alone if necessary. Because on a tightrope, we all walk alone.” The greatest heroes or Big Man, as I like to say, are the ones who face their problems and fears and challenges alone, determined and brave. And you’re never alone! The Almighty is always with you! Jesus Christ, Lord Krishna, Allah…they’re there with you. And for those who don’t believe in Almighty, then believe in yourself! I mean, everyone should! Because the day you do that, is the day you can face and accomplish anything.
I guess that’s enough keyboard-torturing for today…Buh-Bye!

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must be late to the party it’s not really a rant more of an express type of thing

well recently I’ve gotten back into kpop I found all the bands I use to listen to, I just saw that the lead singer to the band that got me into ied last year it has made me really emotional

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you’re not a monster for doing what you did that night. you don’t deserve to be “lynched” and the emotions you felt, no matter how strong they were, are valid. you’re not the only one who feels “split” for the lack of a better word. as someone who’s super sensitive and emotional, you’re totally not alone either

what happened sounds really concerning, and i wish i could give advice, but i can offer you a virtual hug and a suggestion for you talk to someone you trust and confide in to help you keep your emotions in control before you feel yourself spiraling again. sadness, anger, and pain are all common emotions, but there are better ways to calm down and release that negativity. it’ll take a while to unlearn bad habits and adopt new ones, but i believe you can. :two_hearts::gift_heart::cherry_blossom::heart::sparkling_heart:

(also… i liked the metaphor in the beginning of your rant)

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that was so lovely and motivating to read, thank you! <3

don’t apologize for ranting in your lil motivational speech, i was the one ranting to you first ahaha

anyway i just wanted to clarify that i’m not leaving the forums forever, but i won’t log on every day like i used to. once a week is what i try to aim for just so i can reconnect with everyone and not feel like a stranger wandering a daisy field

just to give a bit of an update, i actually did start drawing again, and i entered a digital artwork in a contest! i wish i could’ve submitted a traditional piece, but someone took all my good art supplies the last day of school (i’m still very salty even though i re-ordered them and i’ll have them back soon)
i know i don’t have a great chance of winning, but the results came out a few days ago so i still need to check that.
i also started keeping track of any art ideas that popped up in my head. i have an idea that i’m really excited to do hopefully today after tennis and breakfast.
and i ended up writing an article too. it was a short poem that didn’t get as many reads or “hearts” as i hoped, but i still liked what i came up with even if i put no ounce of effort in it.
lol i have been watching anime (keeping up with tokyo ghoul and bnha, and starting a new one called darling in the franxx–i’m halfway through and i love it so far) and logging on to old forums and websites to reconnect with people and to catch up with old times. it felt nice.
i wish i could’ve done more, but i got sick with the usual summer allergies so i took a few days to simply… sleep. :zzz::zzz: now that i feel better, i started cooking again starting yesterday and now my days can become productive and interesting!

i wish lots of luck for you in running start and your work towards any of your ambitions!!! i feel your struggles and self-loathing to heart, and i am totally rooting for u!!! celebrate any lil achievement or breakthrough of yours, like submitting that essay early. don’t forget how good it feels not to procrastinate and to have things done ahead of time. with all the free time and the workload off your shoulders, you can do whatever you want! (yes i’m aware i sound like a hypocrite). and this might be pretty obvious, but you might even need the simple reminder: drink and eat something! with all the stress and work you do, you probably don’t even have enough time to look after yourself, which isn’t good at all. take a break when you’re working in the middle of a hard project and use the time to eat, drink, nap, whatever you need to make yourself feel energetic again.

thank you for what you wrote, i’m sending the :heart: back to u

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honestly that small, simple lil reminder is just what i needed to read, all from mother cam

thank you for the technique recommendation! i do have summer homework, so i’ll make sure to use what you suggested when i’m struggling through my honors anatomy & phys hw :') :cherry_blossom::gift_heart:

i’m out of school for now so my stress is a bit minimized. i can make more time for the forums and talking to people i miss.

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My advice is to talk to someone about it. It doesn’t have to be your parents, it could be a therapist or someone you know really well. I know some part of you might think that if you tell others, they will judge you, but believe me they won’t. Your family and closest friends won’t judge you, they will want to help you anyway they can.
@Sarina.K

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Rant! Rant! Warning!

Ever thought about Afterlife? Well, I always think about it. Life gives most of the people utter joy and happiness while Death snatches it away. I once used to hate Death to the very core when I was young, naive, innocent. Took away my grandma from me. Left so many of us in sadness and grief. It was sudden, really sudden and unexpected. I already had a dysfunctional family and this incident made it more awful than it was. My Dad took off to hardcore smoking every night and spent lesser and lesser time with his family. I thought of it as his way to suppress his grief. My mom used to leave early for work and come late at night. The silence was defeaning in our home.
That line that The Ancient One said in that Doctor Strange movie? “We don’t get to choose our time. Death is what gives life meaning. To know your days are numbered, your time is short.” Funny that many of the old people or the ones who’re counting their days backwards say that. When they know or think that they’re gonna die, they do all the things they wanna do or hadn’t done before. Those are wishes. “We never control our wishes. In fact, they slave us around.” True that. You want Oreos, you get 'em. No person is the slave of another. Yet we’re the slaves of our wishes and…cannot eradicate them from our hearts.
Back to Afterlife, have you ever thought about it? It’s the only thing stopping me from pulling off a bank heist. I’m kidding! But the idea does look cool…Anyways, it decides on your actions of the whole lifetime you lived what your next life would be. Don’t ya think its cool? I mean, if you’ve read Death’s Game by earlgreytea, you’d know what I’m talking about. Some must also know about Moksha i.e. Freedom from Cycle of Birth.
I dunno WTH am I typing so…I’m just gonna stop here LOL :sleepy:

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I’ve got a rant. :face_with_hand_over_mouth:

Why is it people feel the need to debate everyone’s opinion? For some strange reason, they have to clapback at something they don’t agree with in the most… Fluent way possible. What I mean is replying with as many big words as possible to show off in a way. I understand you’re educated and want to show off but internet debates is not the way to do it. :woman_shrugging:t4:

It’s just really sad… The forums are suppose to be an inviting place. Not a place where you beat each other with words. I guess people feel that makes them a mature adult :face_with_raised_eyebrow:

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you ever heard of mock trial and debate club??? people like the satisfaction of spewing out big words they probably don’t know the definition to and they just like debating in general. gets them really fired up and motivated lol

some people just always feel the need to be “right” or just have their opinion out there in world for everyone to see

i don’t really get it either, i don’t really like to get into fights and i try to stop them

it’s kinda inevitable to avoid them so if i do get jumbled up in one, i will stand my ground haha

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Lol :joy:

Thanks, I feel a bit better now.

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:raised_hands::raised_hands:

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Recently I checked out a Swedish online forum. It’s one of the most visited Swedish sites and is a way for people to be able to discuss things anonymously online. While I can support this idea, it’s what we’re doing on this forum too. So I read through the thread titles and found a very well… questionable one. All Swedish girls are whores. It is as bad as it sounds and it was this male, who said that all Swedish girls have slept with 20+ guys by the time they’re twenty. Then I read the replies and it all just went downhill. He continued saying things like “men are biologically accepted to have more sexual partners because that’s how it is in nature.” Women have no self-respect and they open their legs for anyone who gives them a little attention. In conclusion, it was like we women were presented with two options. If we do enjoy to have sex and doesn’t mind casual sexual relations we are whores and if anyone if so tried to tell him that he got it all wrong then we were fat ugly feminists that have never gotten laid. I got so angry reading this thread and while I believe that everyone is entitled to their opinion I don’t like when men are trying to suppress female sexuality and call us whores. Then, of course, there were these people who tried to blame it all on the jews… _I I knew this forum is messed up, and I should probably not be so surprised. I listened to a podcast about a guy who killed himself and filmed the entire thing. He was active on the forum before killing himself and people were telling him to do it and said so many horrible things. To make matters worse, the thread is still there. The creators and moderators are saying that the site is a place where people can express their opinions but where’s the line? What has jews to do with female sexuality? How can that comment still be there? It was the first and last time I ever went to that forum. It’s a scary and hateful place and I will never go back there EVER!

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eww:hushed::hushed::hushed::tired_face::expressionless::expressionless::expressionless::no_mouth::no_mouth::neutral_face:

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Same. I was also almost arrested (I was frisked and questioned) for “looking Indian with red hair” even though I was clearly the only white male at the party. These things do happen and you are not alone. <3

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okkkkkk smoll rant xDDDDD

can i just say how much i hate people who treats others like shit bc of their evilness? Like nothing is wrong with being evil. By evil I dont mean rude, idk just wishing death upon someone is neutral for me now :upside_down_face:

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