Thank you, I left early and I’m watching a movie but I fell asleep in the middle, so I guess that counts as a nap haha.
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oof ive ranted on this thread two other times and im already feeling like im being annoying lmfao
but… i used to like this boy lets call him Q and then another girl that likes him, W and W’s friend (and mine) E. Then my bff, R. So i started getting a crush on him April 2017 in health class, we had this inside joke because we had to film for a project. so I started texting him thru instagram. we texted a while but i always texted first so i stopped cuz i felt annoying. so October 2017 all of my friends went ice skating bc it was E’s bday party. And thats how I figured out W liked Q and I told my friend R that i liked him too. (Q isnt a fuck boi tho, but Q, W. and E are friends at the moment.) And i still had a crush on him but it was like a tiny crush. March 2018, i still liked him but then i stopped. now its June 2018. W told Q she liked him a while ago and it turns out W liked her back and now they’re dating. But i had another crush (it was Q’s friend oops, but it was tiny and hes so gd niceeee) And its July 2018 I don’t have a crush on anybody and I’m on vacation and Q decided to text me again because we stopped texting! wtf lmao who does that? so i was like “okay ima roll with it” so we start texting and sometimes we can talk for an hour/two about like literally anything, but mostly jokes and “play” fighting. so I told R that he texted me but that’s the only time i’ve talked to R about it.(Q is still dating W but R told me that W isn’t really into him anymore and that they might break up. but August 2018 and they didn’t lmao) so now it’s August 2018, we still text and Q’s still dating W. but i feel bad for texting Q since he’s dating W. but i don’t have any feelings for Q, i only like our friendship but i don’t know if he considers me a friend… plus school starts in 8 days and i’m kinda scared bc i don’t want to talk to him during school oof. i might just avoid him plus R is gonna move later in the year and go to a different school so RIP me, actually RIP my life this is too complicated smh.
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I am confused, but for the most part, been there and did that (i think??) SORRY I am not good at following stories…
But Hey! Maybe it isn’t as awkward as you think? Maybe it’s all in your head! Don’t make it a big deal… it won’t matter much in the long run 
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maybe its not awkward and in my head and wont matter in the long run. but it matters to me now, it mattered to me for the last year and half. im not trying to make this a big deal. ive kept all of this stuff to myself. never told anyone about this and this is my first time ranting about it, i never wrote this stuff in a journal or a diary either. im just trying to let it out…
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OH no no, I am not being rude.
Ok I won’t comment on issues anymore, I am no therapist. I just wanted to take some of the stress off of you… sorry 
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NOOOO, its fine. you aren’t being rude at all. i know you were just trying to help 
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Ok, no hard feelings, then?
no not at all. 
ur literally really nice
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Lol, good. I need to rant, but since people may not see your rant now, let me think of some helpful advice. Lol.
you should rant if you want to. i just needed to let that out not get replies 
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ok. lol thx
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UGHHHHHHHHHHHHH life is hard…
so. hard.
So here’s the sc00P on my problems…
I left episode about 2 months ago… I never told anyone the whole reason. Well, a bunch of things just came into my life, and it was overwhelming. My mom was diagnosed with Cancer, and I found out one of my friends had depression and was suicidal… he cut. After this, I’m helping WAY more at home, and spending countless nights hugging my sister, trying to be strong telling her everything with mom will be ok, only letting tears fall when she isn’t around. And with my friend, I did this thing called the butterfly project. Look it up . He has stopped cutting, but still has stuff going on, and is depressed. And then… school rolls in. I really want to get into a good college, so studies are EVERYTHING for me. And I decided to join yearbook since I have past experience with cameras… I love photography! So there are all of these big responsibilities to handle, and it is a lot. Well I cam back, and today I was confused… no one gave me a warm welcome back, and no one even seemed hapy to hear from me. I am just sitting here… dumbfounded at the fact that I am over here excited to talk to my friends, and see whats good, only t be smacked in the face with a bunch of hate. We cleared it all but, but tough crowd. And now I feel lost sitting here looking as how all of my friends have moved on and I can’t keep up. UGHHHH
I don’t even know how to feel because I want to cry, and like scream my head off.
It just feels like I don’t have any good days, and everyday is gloomy and sad 
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Adam i am happy you’re back. Don’t you get that???
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Yes ama, but like I said, I just don’t feel like you are.
You guys have a different definition of “happy” than me, I guess.
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… but I am. I am.
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Ok. I believe you. Let me just get out of this slump, ugh
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Wow! I’m so sorry! I don’t want you to feel like people are just saying “oh I’m sorry about that” or “that must suck”, because why not. I’m saying, you will be ok. I lost my father to cancer. Your mom can get through this, though. Don’t answer if you don’t want to, but what type of cancer is it?
With the right treatment, and a little bit of strength, she will get through this. So will you, and your sister. I know how it feels. It hurts. My grades actually dropped, during this time in my life, because I couldn’t focus, I was always in distress, and I gave up. But you… you are so strong for this. You are so strong, and getting through this like a boss 
. Keep it up, Adam! I am here for you, if you ever need to talk. I can relate, so maybe we could be good friends. I am in yearbook too! Neat. Maybe you can show me some camera tricks, sometime? Only if you have time, of course! But keep doing what you’re doing, and honestly? Don’t let anyone else stop you from keeping your life in check. I hope we can be good friends, Adam!
Don’t stop doing what you’re doing, and I can assure you, it is all gonna be ok. Best of luck!
~Jamiex2 (Moshix2)
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Thanks so much for this… We are actually alike, in a couple of ways…!
I lost my father, too. It wasn’t easy, but life did go on, and I got better with time… so did my family. It’s just, I don’t want to be an orphan…then what happens to me and my sister? Foster care? Living with family? We are distant from our family, so I don’t want either! Ugh.
I love yearbook so far, it is a lot of pressure, but it is so much fun!
My mom has breast cancer, btw.
I would like to talk to you more, in private chats, maybe? I’d gladly show you some camera tips
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Great! Guess we both just found a friend in eachother! See you in Pm’s 
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sighs Traumatized…
I'm Scared of Manhattan Now...
So, I was at Central Park on Friday, preparing to take the train and go home, right? After a picnic with friends. But, then I see the Trump Building where I’m standing. I decide to take a few pictures, because I’ve never seen it before. I don’t go Downtown that often. Then, this man comes up to me. He’s talking to me. I couldn’t really understand him, because he had a heavy accent. Told me he was from Cuba, and that I look like a Dominicana. With that, I tried to pass it off, but I was lowkey scared. I told that I was trying to get home, and find the exit. But, no. The guy took my arm, and tried to lead me elsewhere. He showed this map and pointed to a lake in the middle, for canoeing. That was when I started to panic. Especially because he was touching me. So, because I still, for some reason, acted perfectly fine, I just followed him. He kept trying to talk to me. So, I was led somewhere(?) At the end of the park. The police wasn’t far. Luckily, I found my way out and pretty much left. Still, I feel a bit scared when travelling alone now, because I know my parents told me to be careful. I’m guessing I was almost kidnapped? Can’t tell…
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