Semi invasive cause I kinda forgot… R u bi or lesbian
1 Like
can I get an invasive truth, please?
2 Likes
Lesbian
1 Like
Is there a special meaning behind ur pf? If so what
Invasive truth??
Jen here’s an invasive truth
For a school thing I had to make a thing where I describe why a painting means a lot to me
I looked up “depressing paintings” and used the one in your pfp
The truth: why did you make it your pfp
1 Like
Invasive truth please?
I chose it cause at the time I was feeling really depressed and lonely. I saw a bunch of other ones, I like but they might trigger someone cause of how graphic they were. And when I choose depressing art and stuff I like it to be colorful or have a bitbof variation with color so yea
1 Like
Well, the silhouette is part of a group profile pic thing I have going on with some of my closest friends like Once, SillyCupcake, Mehek, LHT, and FallenAngelNight13
The background is because stars really get me to think about my own existence, and how galaxies remind me that while yes, I’m small, to the point of being mathematically insignificant, I’m a part of something that’s bigger than myself, because I am made of starstuff, as Carl Sagan said. Also, space really gets me to think, and it’s the one thing that’s sparked my curiosity the most since I was a child. So yeah, the background both calms me down, making me feel like I belong, and excites me, because there are thousands of things I don’t know, and thousands of things I want to know about and explore, and even though I won’t have an answer to all of the mysteries that come with life, I can be certain that there’s always going to be something out there to learn about, and to keep me going.
4 Likes
Mmmmmmmmmm ok
1 Like
Hmmmm im running out, why did u choose that username
1 Like
If you had the chance to go back one year into the past and relive this past year, would you do it? Would you use that chance to change anything?
2 Likes
Ok. So a few reasons
Dream team is something my art group calls themselves
Circe because. Idk. I’m fascinated by Circe and because of someone else’s username somewhere else and to piss someone off.
Yes and yes.
- I would punch Jayden when I had the chance
- I would run away while it was still worth it
- I wouldn’t have said that shit about Ruby
- I wouldn’t attempt those 2 times this summer
- I wouldn’t have let things get so far
- I would never tell anyone anything because a lot of people said “attention seeker” while I was venting
- I would have asked Mari on a date before Isabel became her gf
- I would take those antidepressants instead of throwing them away…
2 Likes
Damn ok haha
I stared having some moments I can only describe as “!” moments since before I was 12.
I think it was small stuff at first when I was much younger (3-10) that I didn’t figure out was caused by being LGBT until muuuuuuch later but everything is pretty fuzzy time wise. I know that when I started growing up more and my body and brain were like ‘hi we need to start being an adult in a few years so let’s get ready for that mcstuff here ya go’ that that’s when things hit me the STRONGEST. At the oldest I was probably 12 but I honestly had no clue how to explain anything I was going through and I couldn’t really try to figure out at all because i didn’t even know you could be LGBT for a long, long time.
At 13-14 I stumbled across some comics that perfectly described how I was feeling. It was weird, i figured everything I was experiencing was totally normal and I guess no one ever talked about it? It’s kind of like always seeing the color blue and you assume everyone else sees that blue but you find out later that nope, most people are looking at a different kind of blue.
Not the best metaphor but I’ve never claimed to be a poet haha.
When I saw that the things I was experiencing had a term, I was confused and relieved and a whole mix of other feelings.
As I’m sure you’ve guessed I’m not fantastic at verbalizing things but it felt like… I finally had the language to put to how I felt.
Due to certain things I ended up burying this deep inside and tried to forget it and ignore it all the while questioning if I really was that.
Over the next two years I questioned myself so much that I didn’t even know who, much less what, I was. Eventually I decided I would separate labels from how I was feeling.
When I did that, it was suddenly so much easier to tell how I was feeling and what I wanted. One of the things that kept me from accepting myself fully was that I terrified of being wrong.
Absolutely. Petrified.
But I had to force myself to accept that sometimes I’ll be wrong but that’s ok. And it’s important in figuring yourself out.
So I started to accept myself more and allow myself to try things I thought were off limits unless I was 100% certain. The more I tried the more felt right or at least felt better.
After that I still doubted myself deeply but I spent a while accepting myself and trying to move forward.
Now it’s taken a lot but I’m happily me and although I still have occasional doubts I know who I am and I’m not afraid anymore. I’m me and I’m proud of it.
Something that also helped with figuring out my sexuality was realizing I had allowed myself to have a crush on a girl and I had also had a crush on a guy. It was a bit easier after that 
If anyone reading this is tryna figure themselves out, let yourself try and feel things. Don’t shut yourself down immediately and try to separate labels from what you want.
Also I know I’m a big hypocrite here, but it really does help to relax and not pressure yourself too much. Things take time and it’s ok to make mistakes!
Also try journaling your thoughts and feelings and writing honestly about how you feel about them.
If anyone wants to know anything more or any more details feel free to pm me haha. I’m not sure I’ll be able to help but it might help if its at least out of your head.
4 Likes
Let me add on to that
- I wouldn’t have broken my mother’s trust
- I would’ve sued Jayden for psychological damage
- I would eat more instead of starving myself but. That’s not something I can change
- I would have told them I loved them more often
- I would have tried to call them
- I would have run away to be with them if it made them happy
- I wouldn’t have fucked up so many times
- I wouldn’t have taken all those coins from the vending machine (that was a bad idea)
- I would’ve killed myself.
- I would’ve faked that suicide
- I would’ve finally been free
- I would go to live in Paris. Alone I guess.
2 Likes
Just for clarification, I wasn’t letting myself feel anything for anyone’s if any gender because I had been pushing everything I felt down and ignoring it unless I was questioning it to death. When I let myself have a crush and I didn’t try and constantly question it and then I had another crush it helped me. Does that make any sense…?
3 Likes
Yea I think that makes sense hahaha
1 Like
- I would’ve thrown my phone in the lake and let it drift away
- I would’ve broken a few bones so I wouldn’t have to go to school
- I never would’ve joined forums
- I wouldn’t let myself get close to anybody because either way I eventually get hurt and then hurt them without meaning to
- I would’ve robbed a McDonald’s for those fake chicken nuggets
- I would’ve told Mari how I feel
- I would’ve changed my first impression at my new school
- I would’ve told Darrell to fuck the hell off
- I would’ve told Joshua that he fucked with my brain too many times
- I would have ended everything at my old school
2 Likes
Invasive truth please?
Oh shit…