Its been soooo long since i’ve written anything 
knocking
1:30 am
I park the car in his neighborhood, staring in the mirror not being able able to recognize myself anymore, mascara all over my crimson cheeks. “Its gonna get better” I remind myself, The only thing left with me is hope at this point.*
knock knock knock ’Damnit open the door leo!' I think to myself just as i hear footsteps approaching. this is it, I’ll finally tell him the truth
"Ava? What are you doing here so late?" he whispered
" i can e- " I started but was soon cut off “Is that blood?!” he shrieked
"yes, im not hurt though," I breathed "I have something to tell you"
"Ava?" confused, he asked "Yes?"
"Why do you have john’s car?" he breathed
"I can explain-"
"But he was found dead this evening-" he said, still processing all the details
"Yo-You didnt do it, right?"
"I can explain, i swear" “Did you do it? Yes or no?” he asked again, trying to keep his calm
"I- i did and i dont regret one bit of it," I spat without thinking
"And I’m sorry for what i’m gonna do now, i hope one day you’ll forgive me"
Without letting him think any further, I pulled out the injection and watched it make contact with his neck
"They deserved it, lets go Ava" An all too familiar voice said.